It's my birthday. The day I was born 20 years ago. And instead of anticipating gifts. I am nostalgic. Because for the first time, I look at my short 20 years and I feel old. By no means do I measure up to my grandmother's gentleness, my grandfather's humor, my fathers intelligence, and my mother's wisdom, but I feel experienced.
My charmed life has sometimes offered disappointment, grief, confusion, and loneliness. But I now embrace it. I love that the good and the bad have made me into this too-outspoken, too-passionate, too-eager 20 year old I see reflected in the computer screen. I can be proud of my accomplishments, because there were many. And they were great. And I do not need to worry about what I will become, because I don't know yet. But I will be great.
That's the best part. I will look at this my 30th, 40th, and 100th birthday and laugh at my young, assuming self, Because I really don't know what I think I do. I haven't seen the most elated happiness and I haven't experienced rock bottom. And I can't wait, because I get to keep creating myself, giving myself the gifts of accomplishment, failure, and life.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
I love you Travis David Standley!
♥COUNTDOWN 46 DAYS♥
3 comments:
Happy birthday Jewels! I love you too.
happy birthday, sis! i love you a million, billion, zillion.
Love the post, Julie. You are very thoughtful, creative and a good writer. Happy Birthday today! We got some important wedding stuff done today, didn't we? Hope the rest of the day was good for you, too. Just remember that mom and dad love you tonz and we are very proud of you and the good choices you are making in your life.
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